Friday, February 26, 2010
New Job
I started a new job this week. It's only part-time, but I never realized how much I missed working. I guess having four kids, and going to school made me forget the freedom you feel when your away from home. My job is not hard or stressful...that will come later, but a chance for me to communicate with adults without interrupting my conversation with "if you don't sit down and be quiet for 5 minutes, your gonna get it!"
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
People who drive me insane.
What is it with people that feel the need to point out your more unflattering aspects? As though I don't already know that I've put on weight and have grey hairs. :(
I realize that when I got married in '96 I weighed a healthy 122lbs and now I weigh an unhealthy 185lbs, but I don't carry around that extra weight with pride. On the contrary, it upsets me everyday that I don't have strong enough faith in myself to give 100% effort to my weight loss attempts. I'm trying not to fall into a diet routine, because they ultimately fail, I just want to try to eat healthier foods and portions, without giving up the stuff I like. Just a couple of weeks ago I was in our local Walmart looking at diet aids (don't freak, I didn't buy any), and the lady next to me asked which one I thought would be the best. I told her honestly that I didn't know, in which she replied, "well you don't have as much chunk to lose as I do." What??? A complete stranger is telling me that I have "Chunk." How on earth do you reply to that? I just shut my gaping mouth and walked away. I won't lie, it hurts every time someone refers to me as chubby, fat, overweight, pudgy or stocky, but unlike them I don't come back with a snappy retort of degrading comments.
It's the same with my grey hair, so friggin what! It's a gene thing, nothing I can do about that. (Thanks Rubery's) But I dye my hair (sometimes), but I don't waste $30 on it. Because I see that's as ridiculous and vain. I have more important things to spend $30 on other than my hair. Normally it wouldn't bother me, but I am so sick and tired of people who feel the need to point it out. I have mirrors people, I see the grey strands every morning when I comb my hair. There's an old saying out there that goes: If you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all." some people really need to take that to heart and think about how what they say may effect the person before they blab it out of their mouths. I realize that they don't mean it to hurt a persons feelings, but what else can it possibly do!
Well I'm done venting!! I'm learning to write down the crazy thoughts in my head instead of letting them rot my brain. It's healthier than constantly letting them run around in there. Write it down and forget about it...that's my new philosophy.
I realize that when I got married in '96 I weighed a healthy 122lbs and now I weigh an unhealthy 185lbs, but I don't carry around that extra weight with pride. On the contrary, it upsets me everyday that I don't have strong enough faith in myself to give 100% effort to my weight loss attempts. I'm trying not to fall into a diet routine, because they ultimately fail, I just want to try to eat healthier foods and portions, without giving up the stuff I like. Just a couple of weeks ago I was in our local Walmart looking at diet aids (don't freak, I didn't buy any), and the lady next to me asked which one I thought would be the best. I told her honestly that I didn't know, in which she replied, "well you don't have as much chunk to lose as I do." What??? A complete stranger is telling me that I have "Chunk." How on earth do you reply to that? I just shut my gaping mouth and walked away. I won't lie, it hurts every time someone refers to me as chubby, fat, overweight, pudgy or stocky, but unlike them I don't come back with a snappy retort of degrading comments.
It's the same with my grey hair, so friggin what! It's a gene thing, nothing I can do about that. (Thanks Rubery's) But I dye my hair (sometimes), but I don't waste $30 on it. Because I see that's as ridiculous and vain. I have more important things to spend $30 on other than my hair. Normally it wouldn't bother me, but I am so sick and tired of people who feel the need to point it out. I have mirrors people, I see the grey strands every morning when I comb my hair. There's an old saying out there that goes: If you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all." some people really need to take that to heart and think about how what they say may effect the person before they blab it out of their mouths. I realize that they don't mean it to hurt a persons feelings, but what else can it possibly do!
Well I'm done venting!! I'm learning to write down the crazy thoughts in my head instead of letting them rot my brain. It's healthier than constantly letting them run around in there. Write it down and forget about it...that's my new philosophy.
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